"ANOREXIA" - Hlub Nws, QHOV TSEEB - PERFECT

2024 Tus sau: Harry Day | [email protected]. Kawg hloov kho: 2023-12-17 15:46

Kuv qhov tsis muaj zog coj kuv txoj sia. Kuv yog ib tus neeg nyiam ua phooj ywg, Kuv nyiam seev cev, khiav thaum sawv ntxov, siv sijhawm nrog phooj ywg … Tab sis tam sim no qhov no yog yav dhau los. Xyoo dhau los, Kuv tau tshuaj xyuas txhua yam uas tuaj yeem ua tau: lub paj hlwb, cov hlab ntshav, cov qog ua qog - txhua yam tau ua tiav. Qhov kawg ntawm qhov tsis muaj zog ntawm tsiaj qus yog tias nws yog caj ces thiab kws kho mob tau hais kom noj zaub mov thiab qee yam zaub mov rau kuv. Thaum kuv hnov lub zog tuaj txog, kuv sim mus taug kev hauv lub tiaj ua si, tab sis tom qab ntawd kuv lub zog rov tso kuv thiab kuv tsis tuaj yeem tham nrog leej twg. Kuv tau siv ntau qhov nyuaj thiab teeb meem nrog kev sib txuas lus, tab sis kev coj tus cwj pwm tau pab kuv kov yeej kuv kev ntshai tib neeg, sai thiab muaj txiaj ntsig. Kuv tau tshem ntawm bulimia kuv tus kheej, thaum muaj ib hnub kuv qhov kev ntshai tshaj plaws uas kuv yuav tsis tuaj yeem ntuav tshwm sim - Kuv tau noj thiab tsis ntuav … Yog li kuv paub qhov ua tsis tiav ntawm tag nrho cov kev koom tes no thiab nres ua rau ntuav. Kuv nkag siab tias yog kws kho mob tsis pom dab tsi, nws yog psychosomatics. Qhov tsis muaj zog no los qhov twg los?

- Nyob zoo, Kuv yog niam ntawm Marina, uas tau nrog koj tham yav tas los txog kev qaug zog. Marina tam sim no phem heev, nws tsis muaj zog, nws tsis tuaj yeem tham nrog koj txawm tias nyob hauv Skype, nws nug kuv. Kuv txhawj xeeb, nws hais tias "koj poob kuv lawm," thiab kuv tsis paub tias yuav ua dab tsi ntxiv. Koj puas tuaj yeem pab peb li cas?

- Hmoov tsis zoo, kuv tsis tuaj yeem tham nrog koj dab tsi Marina hais rau kuv, yog li kom ua tiav daim duab, qhia txhua yam tseem ceeb uas koj paub txog nws lub hlwb thiab lub cev.

- Marina yog ib tug ntxhais zoo heev. Kuv tsis paub yuav hais li cas. Nws zoo nkauj heev, txawj ntse, kawm tiav los ntawm lub koom haum nrog kev hwm, nws paub 3 yam lus zoo kawg nkaus. Nws yog peb qhov kev txaus siab! Nws tsis muaj phooj ywg ntau, tab sis nws tsis muaj sijhawm, kawm, ncig, peb tau sim nrog nws mus rau chav ua yeeb yam, ua yeeb yam, thiaj li hais lus, txhawm rau txhim kho kab lis kev cai txij thaum yau … Yav dhau los, nws tau pab kuv txhua yam nyob ib puag ncig tsev, peb nyob ze heev. Cov phooj ywg tau tshwm sim ntawm lub koom haum, tom qab ntawd ua haujlwm tsis zoo, kuv nkees heev, thiab tom qab ntawd nws pib … Kuv tsis muaj teeb meem nrog kuv kev noj qab haus huv, thiab nws zoo li yog caj ces, lawv hais qee yam nrog mitochondria. Puas yog nws qhia koj tias nws muaj bulimia tau ntau xyoo?

- Vim li cas koj thiaj txiav txim siab tias nws muaj bulimia?

- Zoo, nws hais. Peb tsis muaj qhov zais cia.

- Nws puas tau noj thiab tom qab ntawd ntuav?

- Kuv tsis paub, nws tsis tau noj hauv tsev li cas. Rau peb, nws nyiam ua zaub mov noj, thiab nws tus kheej tau hais tias nws muaj khoom noj txom ncauj ntawm chaw ua haujlwm … Tsuas yog txij thaum nws tseem hluas, Marina txaj muag los noj mov ua ntej ntawm ib tus neeg, nws hais tias nws zoo li tsis zoo. Tom qab ntawd nws tsuas yog nyiam ib tug tub, tab sis nws tsis nyiam txiv neej ntau. Thaum nws lub sijhawm ploj mus ntau xyoo, nws hais tias pom tau tias Vajtswv tsis xav kom nws tsim tsev neeg nrog lwm tus. Thiab tom haujlwm txhua hnub ntawm kev khiav, tsis muaj sijhawm ntau los noj. Tej zaum tom qab ntawd kuv tau noj ntau dhau ntawm ib lub sijhawm, kuv tsis pom. Kuv tsis paub, nws hais li ntawd, Kuv ntseeg nws, peb tsis muaj qhov zais cia.

- Qee zaum peb txhua tus tuaj yeem hais qee yam lossis tsis to taub ib leeg … Nws qhov siab thiab qhov hnyav yog dab tsi?

- 174 cm, thiab tam sim no kuv yuav nug qhov hnyav … - 55 kg.

- Nws tsis saib 55 kg … Nws paub nws hnyav npaum li cas yog tias nws tsis mus qhov twg thiab tsis ua dab tsi? … BMI 18 yog tus qauv hnyav, nrog qhov hnyav ntawm 54 kg nws hloov mus ua qhov hnyav tsis txaus. Vim li cas 55 kg?

Kuv tsis paub … nug?

- Tsis tsim nyog. Thov qhia peb yam koj paub txog kev mob anorexia?

“Huag tsis, kuv paub. Qhov no tsis yog hais txog peb. Ua ntej, nws yeej tsis xav kom poob phaus, nws tsis tsim nyog rau nws. Ua las voos, dhia, nws ua haujlwm 2 teev nyob rau ib hnub hauv chav dhia ua si thaum nws muaj zog, daim duab zoo li menyuam roj hmab, txhua tus ntxhais tau khib … Txawm tias thaum muaj bulimia, nws tsis yog rau qhov hnyav, nws tsuas yog nyuaj rau nws los ntawm cov zaub mov nws tau noj, lub cev tsis zoo, koj paub. Nws tau npub, tawg, nws feem ntau muaj teeb meem nrog txoj hnyuv. Tab sis nws txawm tau noj cov qos yaj ywm kib ntau npaum li nws xav tau, nws tsis xav txog zaub mov noj. Nws tau tshem ntawm bulimia nws tus kheej, yooj yim thiab yooj yim, tsis muaj teeb meem. Thiab kev noj zaub mov uas tam sim no yog kws kho mob tau sau tseg. Nws muaj qee yam nrog mitochondria, tsis muaj mis nyuj, porridge … zoo, ntau yam tsis raug tso cai.

- Yog tias kuv hais tias bulimia tsuas yog ib feem pom ntawm kev mob anorexia, nws txhais li cas rau koj?

- Kuv tsis quav ntsej. Peb tau tso qhov kawg rau qhov no. Nws tau saib xyuas nws tus kheej txij thaum yau, thiab bulimia tau tshwm sim thaum nws yog neeg laus. Nws yog ib txwm zoo, nws tsis tas yuav poob phaus. Nws tsis muaj teeb meem nrog zaub mov, raws li kuv hais, qhov no yog qee yam caj ces!

- Koj tau mus rau tus kws tshuaj caj ces ua ke, nws tau hais dab tsi?

- Nws tsav nws tus kheej, tab sis nws qhia kuv txhua yam, peb tsis muaj qhov zais cia.

- Tam sim no nws noj dab tsi?

Nws tsuas yog qaug zog heev, nws tsis xav tau dab tsi hlo li, thiab nws tsis raug tso cai mus noj zaub mov.

- Hnub no nws noj dab tsi txhua hnub?

- Porridge. Loj loj! Diav 2 kom paub meej.

- Nws noj dab tsi nag hmo, ib lub lim tiam dhau los, ib hlis? Txiv hmab txiv ntoo, zaub, nqaij, mov ci? Kuv hais rau Marina tias kev noj zaub mov uas nws tau teev tseg tsis suav nrog zaub mov, tab sis hloov qee yam nrog lwm tus.

- Zoo, tej zaum koj tuaj yeem noj ntau yam sib txawv. Kuv mam li sim pub zaub mov rau nws ntxiv. Tab sis kuv yuav ua dab tsi nrog nws qhov tsis muaj zog?

- Kuv tsis muaj peev xwm txaus los tshuaj xyuas Marina, tab sis yog tias peb tab tom tham tiag txog kev mob anorexia, lub sijhawm twb ua haujlwm tiv thaiv peb lawm. Thiab nws cov kab lus "koj poob kuv" siv lub ntsiab lus sib txawv.

- Kuv lees koj, qhov no tsis yog anorexia.

- Peb tsis tuaj yeem paub qhov no txog thaum Marina tau kuaj mob tag nrho, zoo dua hauv tsev kho mob. Txawm hais tias nws yog dab tsi tsis raug nrog nws, nyob ntawd nws yuav tau txais kev pab tsim nyog thiab yam tsawg kawg ntawm cov rog tsawg yuav tshwm sim. Peb tsis tuaj yeem tos ib yam dab tsi hloov. Nws tus kheej yuav tsis mus ntsib kws kho mob ntxiv lawm.

“Peb tsis mus ntsib kws kho mob hlwb. Hauv peb lub nroog tsis muaj ib tus kws kho kev puas siab puas ntsws ib txwm muaj. Nws twb tau taug kev ib zaug, nws tau hais kom siv gidazepam, ua ntej nws tau pab nws daws teeb meem kev ntxhov siab, tab sis tam sim no nws tsuas yog ua rau nws mob ntxiv. Koj yog tus kws paub txog kev puas siab ntsws, koj tuaj yeem ua qee yam zoo li tus kws kho mob hlwb!

- Tsuas yog qhov kuv tuaj yeem qhia yog tias koj sab laj nrog kws kho mob kom sai li sai tau kom paub tseeb lossis tsis lees paub qhov kev kuaj mob thiab hloov koj cov zaub mov. Yog tias koj tsis xav mus ntsib kws kho mob hlwb, mus ntsib kws kho paj hlwb, kws kho paj hlwb, kws kho mob plab, kws kho mob. Yog tias koj nrhiav tsis tau nws hauv koj lub nroog - sab laj nrog kws kho mob hauv Is Taws Nem. Tsuas yog qhia kuv tias tus kws kho kev puas siab ntsws nug kom kuaj xyuas tus cwj pwm noj zaub mov thiab sau ntawv kho mob. Kuv yeej xav yuam kev lawm. Yog tias koj mus ntsib kws kho mob, tus kws paub noj zaub mov tshwj xeeb, thiab nws hais tias kuv yog "tus tso", kuv yuav zoo siab xwb.

- Okay, Kuv yuav qhia nws txog peb kev sib tham thiab ua raws li nws txiav txim siab.